What happened in the past that put you at where you are today and where do you see yourself going?

[dilla]

Title asks it all.

 

[Tha_Wood]

met a girl. fell in love. drank to forget. become a less handsome hank moody getting a lot less chicks.

 

[Sebastian]

met a girl. fell in love. it ended. never fall out of love. wish i would drink. walking down the same road.

 

[Flipmo]

Met a girl, fell in love, she put me through hell, rearranged my priorities to help her, lost a few years of my life when I should have just told her to fuck off and returned to my real priorities.

 

[Jokerman]

I'm where I'm at because someone gave me a pill. Now I feel limitless. I'm either headed for the Presidency or the drug will eventually kill me.

 

[dilla]

So a girl is the cause for most of your problems?

 

[keco52]

Um I guess in keeping with the theme of being shat on by the opposite sex...I was cheated on and now I'm jaded. Until him i thought people were all inherently good but now I know some people are fucking evil.

 

[Flipmo]

So a girl is the cause for most of your problems?

Well, I'm on track now. This happened years ago... but I could have been more 'up-to-date' persay if I had made better choices.

Um I guess in keeping with the theme of being shat on by the opposite sex...I was cheated on and now I'm jaded. Until him i thought people were all inherently good but now I know some people are fucking evil.

This is the most recent guy you've been dating? Sorry to hear that, people are shit.

 

[Da_Funk]

Met a girl. fell in love. she asked me to become a christian. feeling lost. have gone back to drinking.

 

[Prize Gotti]

Met a drug dealer, fell in love with his drugs. That relationship pretty much fucked my life up so I ended it, and to be fair, its made me some one I don't want to be, feel like I am stuck like this for the rest of my life. Even though I havent taken drugs for a good 5/6 years, it still has a huge hold on my life and effects the way I behave and feel.

I'm still dating her friend, marijuanna. I hooked up with her before I started dating drugs, and I should have stayed with her in the first place.

Where do I see myself in the future?

Escaping the hell I call life. Moving away from everything around me that reminds me of those years. I need to be back where I feel my home is, in America, a place where my life was good, where I didn't even feel the "need" to smoke pot.

Life here is so depressing.

 

[Da_Funk]

^Why don't you try doing AA or some type of therapy? Sounds like it might be exactly what you need.

 

[Prize Gotti]

^Why don't you try doing AA or some type of therapy? Sounds like it might be exactly what you need.

Therapy may work for most people, those people are people with unanswered questions. I have no questions to ask. My problem is more to do with the loss of creative thought. I used to have ideas, my brain was full of things to do, make, paint, IDEAS. Now its just a void, sometimes the creative sparks there, but never there enough to motivate me.

And being depressed isn't really to do with my past, its called being British.

 

[S O F I]

it could be because you smoke weed. marijuana always gave me really creative thoughts about everything but on the other hand, by the nature of the drug, I was never motivated to go through with it. hell, I was too lazy to write the shit down even though I knew I'd forget.

 

[tHuG $TyLe]

Met a girl, killed her.

 

[Prize Gotti]

it could be because you smoke weed. marijuana always gave me really creative thoughts about everything but on the other hand, by the nature of the drug, I was never motivated to go through with it. hell, I was too lazy to write the shit down even though I knew I'd forget.

Thats the thing, before I went on a drug binge, I was smoking weed, and I was motivated to do things then. Now, its like writers block, theres just no ideas there.

I am actually a pretty good artist. The things I drew and painted in my younger years were amazing. I remember my art teachers being blown away by the work I presented to them.

Now I have no idea what to draw, what to paint.

I just need to clear my head, and I can't do that here. I need to physically be some where were I am happy.

 

[vg4030]

Met a girl, turned out to be a man. Fucked him anyway

 

[S O F I]

Every writer and every artist has that artist block from time to time. The only thing to do, as obvious as it sounds, is to just start drawing anything. Just draw random shit until ideas pop in your head.

Also, how can you keep your head clear if you smoke weed? It's not possible. You can be motivated but by nature of the drug your head isn't clear. Just try it out for the hell of it. I stopped drinking just for the hell of it to see if I could and how I would feel for doing so. I feel grrrrrrrrrrrrreaat.

 

[Da_Funk]

Thats the thing, before I went on a drug binge, I was smoking weed, and I was motivated to do things then. Now, its like writers block, theres just no ideas there.

I am actually a pretty good artist. The things I drew and painted in my younger years were amazing. I remember my art teachers being blown away by the work I presented to them.

Now I have no idea what to draw, what to paint.

I just need to clear my head, and I can't do that here. I need to physically be some where were I am happy.

What SOFI said. You can complain and be miserable all you want, its nothing but a waste of your time. And no one gives a fuck or has any sympathy for you. And when your not even willing to help yourself, what I said goes ten fold.

 

[Jokerman]

And no one gives a fuck or has any sympathy for you.

I do. I have tears in my eyes.

 

[Prize Gotti]

What SOFI said. You can complain and be miserable all you want, its nothing but a waste of your time. And no one gives a fuck or has any sympathy for you. And when your not even willing to help yourself, what I said goes ten fold.

Can you point out where i've asked for some one to "give a fuck" or "have sympathy" for me?

I just responded to the thread as I was asked to by the thread starter.

Needless to say, why would I care about your opinion? You're the second biggest dickhead i've ever met online, now go back to you're little world and continue thinking you're funny.

As for SOFI, I respect what you said, its why I want to move away. Like I said previously, I need to get away from the reasons why I still smoke weed. I've been smoking weed on and off since I was 12. When I lived away from here, I hardly ever smoked, I never got that "I need a joint" feeling. I had no reason to want to be high. Why? Because I was happy.