I was a spoiled for the larger part of my life (although not Coonie-spoiled). So I never had any incentive to do anything good until I destroyed my friendships and life by being an unreliable and lazy pothead. I lost all my creativity like Gotti talked about. Shit was bad for a while. None of my friends would really hang out any more. I flunked high school. Now I'm soon turning 25 which gives me competence to study again. I sat it out because I refused to learn German or French, and thankfully, now I don't have to. I might start school next year, a child protection education-related study. I don't know how it translates directly. I'm a little bit into (legit) debt so I see myself rising out of that within the next year. I ordered a new PC last night and it's gonna be bomb I tell ya. Getting a soundcard with a built in headphone pre-amp. Then a bit later, a pair of high-end Sennheisers. So I see myself going to new sonic heights. I'm buying it in parts and putting it together myself, and I'm almost as excited about putting it together as I am about getting it. I can be anal some times. I want to invest in a new keyboard to play with music again. It was just a hobby but it was great being DJ Rizzle. It was a lot of fun, but when I started smoking really heavily I stopped doing anything creative like Gotti and SOFI talked about.
Me and my girl are actually doing really good. We're coming up on nine months. Do you celebrate three quarters of a year lawl? I bought her a pendant in white gold for her birthday earlier this summer. That shit hit a homerun. She fulfills all the parts of me that I can't fulfill myself (and obviously some that I can). Cheesy, I know, but also kinda true. So far I've been somewhat distrusting for obvious (maybe?) reasons (her being hot and me being not), but she hasn't given me a reason to distrust her yet so I'm hoping it'll last, and doesn't go sour.
Btw. God I feel awkward posting deep/personal posts when I haven't posted in a bit. Anyone else get that?