There is something that's been bugging me for a couple weeks and I might as well talk about it here, keco inspired me.
My dad is an over the road truck driver. He drives all over the place but when he goes to California he usually takes a day or two off to visit our family.
My dad has an on/off drug addiction dating back some 30 years from when he used his truck driving to smuggle drugs across the border for the hell's angel's/cartel.
My brother called me a while back saying my dad stopped by my grandpas house in California and used his car to go get some food while he was staying there but he never came back that night. He wasn't answering his phone and no one knew where he was. He basically disappeared for two days. My brother had a hunch he was at an old drug house he knew of and sure enough he was. So my grandpa and brother go get the car and are basically like wtf to my dad.
I didn't know this happened for a couple weeks. My brother and father have a rocky relationship which stems from my father having him when he was 16, while he didn't abandon him he wasn't necessarily a parent cus he was 16, so my grandparents raised him. Also, my brothers mom was murdered when he was very young, I don't remember the age, so when anything happens with my dad he kind of buries it and ignores it or something because of his lack of parents and animosity he still holds on to. Pretty much this is why he didn't tell me at the time of the first incident.
Fast forward a couple more weeks and he does the same thing again. My brother now calls me asking about his habits back home asked me if I knew he was using etc.
I had no idea, he is good at hiding it I guess, he always seems tired but I figure he just wants to relax when he comes home. Looking back and even now the signs are obvious but it's not something I thought of, I figured he was past that considering he had a heart attack 2 years ago and now has a couple stents in his heart. Old habits die hard as they say.
I've never once talked to him about this, not the drug smuggling, not his use, not me getting in trouble for selling drugs, nothing. We don't have problems communicating with each other at all but it's something we don't bring up, or I even think about really, until now.
I've dealt with plenty of death and overdoses in my life but for whatever reason and the circumstances I'm going through now I fear for my fathers life. He is 57 with a drug addiction, that can't be good at that age.
I need to talk to him about this but I feel like I'd be lecturing my father which I feel isn't something that's normal, but it has to happen. I just have no idea how to go about this. I know I need to just say it but it's not easy for me. Just typing this has helped to be honest but still. I'll muster up the courage eventually, hopefully sooner rather than later. Thanks for listening.
Don't mean to hijack this keco, just venting cus it helps
