Am I retarded not understanding the question in 100%?
You mean is it normal for me that a guy who has milions, is famous, has got power still gets depressed/sad/suicidal?
It is normal - money and fame doesn't = happiness.
That's what you mean?
Depending on person's character/aspirations there always has to be some balance between riches and spiritual happiness.
So which option should I choose?
Well basically, now that you asked that question, I realize how imprecise i was.
Here is the idea I am trying to present:
What separates us from our the neanderthal is that, except for less hair of course, our brains have grown. In it has developed several entire new areas of the brain, with their very own functions that the neanderthal did not have. One of these things is our imagination and ability to simulate events before they happen. It's a common misconception that a person's consciousness is a central part of the brain, with supporting sectors that serve various functions as a supplement to the actual consciousness. The fact is a brain is like a tripod with fifty legs (if it was possible) and if you cut one, the whole thing falls apart pretty much. Your mind's simulator is directly dependent on your long-, and short-term memories. Memories aren't stored as a sentence. They are not stored in words. They are stored as emotions and impressions. The extent to which you are able to use your simulator is, disregarding the social norm, limited by your memories, or in other words, your impressions and emotions. Meaning, whatever you haven't actually experienced, you can't really fathom, no matter what you think you know about yourself and everybody else.
To this paragraph I may get the response that "well yeah, duh, I know that." So let me ask then, why is it that everyone, EVERYONE, has problems understanding things that they don't have as a preference or deem respectful or otherwise good? The lack of understanding for how your brain works, and the lack of perspective on people who are not like you and haven't lived a life like you is the very reason why our generation is suffering from more mental problems than any previous generation. Technological advances are a factor. The fact that we now have TVs and PCs actually contributes to the problem, because they are like easily available drugs for people who aren't happy with their lives. They are not the source for the problem though. If people are unhappy, they will find one way or another to soothe their pain. Some people start on drugs, which are arguably even more bad for you, some people become work slaves, they are all the victims of a society that "let them down." This is how they feel anyway, and whenever some douchebag gives them the "children are starving in Africa, what are you complaining about" attitude they only worsen the situation.
I myself have had several depressions. I'm not saying I had to lead a hard life. I'm not saying I ever had to face a real hardship. I never had to make a real sacrifice. I am spoiled and never get into trouble because I have great parents, friends and superiors who have my back. Besides that, I'm a good boy. By now I've grown up. These things no longer haunt me the way they used to. I feel that I have been a person for so long that it's gonna stick with me forever, and that's fine. By now I am accustomed to it. But in hindsight, there is so much stuff that people could have done differently, to which the end result would be that I probably never felt bad for myself the way I have over the years. I don't feel like going into this in too great detail, but I was able to find a way to cope, and now I am actually enjoying a few things in life. I still am a little bit emotionally unstable though.
If I could go back to every episode that, when I look back on it, fueled the fire, I could have told that person(s) exactly what to tell me and I would have been left with a completely different impression. I don't blame anyone. I don't know about the rest of the world, but the mental health among youth in norway could be a lot better. The majority are ruled by insecurities and phobias. I am willing to devote my life to try and find a way for people to interact that doesn't leave people like me, feeling left behind. Now like I mentioned earlier, it had nothing to do with the materialistic things I was given in life, because they were great. I have a great life and a lot of people would probably switch with me. But because of the person that I am, I still can't find pure joy. There is not one day where I don't think about my depression at least once. Now most people would have to wonder why I feel this way when I was given such a great life from a financial point of view.
There are impressions and experiences that sit with me, and they are the confinements that limit my ability to understand. It's a funny thing with me because I used to be that guy's guy type of person that most people liked. Then I started smoking weed, skipping school, falling out, becoming depressed, this was the initial reason. Over the years I have felt betrayed, left behind, not cared for by the people whose respect and recognition I sought. Demons started forming in my head. For a good year, negative thought cycles was the only process of thinking I practiced, and unwillingly so. The end result is that I sit here, in a nice big house, paying a low rent to my parents for the basement apartment, I have a good job with a steady income and free health/travel insurance, I have a computer that works nicely, I have a TV with a playstation, I have several hundred DVDs and about fifty games to play. I have entertainment, I have materialistic shit, but still I manage to not have any faith in my life. It's like I'm sitting here, waiting for someone to give me a hand out of the blue, because I feel I have put so much work into keeping my life balanced that the universe owes it to me to come and save me out of this misery. I am being a little bit poetic right now btw, so don't read the last five to ten sentences so very literally.
The same type of people I have encountered that have blown me off instead of trying to see where I'm coming from are the very type of people that lack the understanding for a celebrity's pressure. Scruffy's comment, "he's rich and famous, poor guy
" particularly ticked me off. I know it was just something he/you said then and there, but when you think about it, it's an idiotic statement. Because you don't even know what it means to become famous. You haven't seen a celebrity's week schedule. You don't know all the work, the pressure, the anxiety. It's easy for you to say "poor fella, he hung himself, what's he got to be sad about?" but that's because you have a hard time understanding that not everyone is like you. This is also why I made such a big deal out of everyone taking the shit out of Rahim. That's also why I got pissed during the Trazlympics. It's got nothing to do with you Scruffy, I like you, but some of your attitudes towards people who don't share your exact beliefs and thoughts are wrong.
The way I see it, the western world as a whole, if they want to put a stop to emo kids, have to give them some understanding and a sense of being a part of something. If not, they're gonna keep doing their emo thing and all our children are gonna slit their wrists before they turn 20. Goodbye humanity. On a serious note, I am serious. Maybe a lot of you haven't experienced it, but today's generation's mental problems can either be ignored hoping for the best, or we can meet these kids with understanding. I mean, emos and Rahim even (lol
) haven't exactly killed someone. They don't rape people. They don't rob and steal. They are not causing damage, they are just misguided and feel that the world has abandoned them. Continuing to taunt and ridicule them is not gonna increase their desire to be a part of any society, is it.
So what's why I made this thread. Because I wanted to see how aware people were, and then give people awareness from a person who knows a little bit about what he's talking about from personal experience.
i see people that try to take the easy way out of life, i.e. killing themsef (especially if it is over being dumped), as being nothing more than weak pieces of shit. depression or not take some fucking meds and feel better 
