Snooping

[Amara]

My boyfriend has two cell-phones, one for private calls and one for work. He had only brought the work one with him so I got jealous (...) and I decided to look through his text messages. When I did I saw that he had saved all these cute messages that I had sent to him like months ago. Taught me not to do that again, lol.

Hehe, thats cute. Actually I think my boyfriend saves all my messages to him as well. Makes me feel bad coz I delete them off my phone for battery space. D'oh... i'm a bad gf, lol.

Where have you been katarina? With you and Emma quiet the past couple months, there have been no female OGs!

 

[Katarina]

Hehe, thats cute. Actually I think my boyfriend saves all my messages to him as well. Makes me feel bad coz I delete them off my phone for battery space. D'oh... i'm a bad gf, lol.

Where have you been katarina? With you and Emma quiet the past couple months, there have been no female OGs!

That's the thing. He's not the type to save messages so I was really surprised.

Eh, I've had some personal problems. I have nothing to do nowadays though so I thought I'd waste some time on forums.

 

[_carmi]

Hehe, thats cute. Actually I think my boyfriend saves all my messages to him as well. Makes me feel bad coz I delete them off my phone for battery space. D'oh... i'm a bad gf, lol.

Where have you been katarina? With you and Emma quiet the past couple months, there have been no female OGs!

well you've been rarely here these weeka amara u too lol

my bf too keeps my text messages on his cell. i was checking this lately lol.

 

[Emma]

My bf keeps my messages and I keep his lol
He doesn't hide anything from me.
It's weird cos I trust my bf 100% and I usually find it hard to trust guys

Amara I will try to post more

 

[_carmi]

^trust is the key to a good relationship.

 

[Emma]

that's why everyone says we're probably gonna last forever lol

 

[Amara]

Eh, I've had some personal problems. I have nothing to do nowadays though so I thought I'd waste some time on forums.

Doesnt sound good. Hope you're alright.

Amara I will try to post more

Yeah you better bitch. lol. If you do, I will too...

well you've been rarely here these weeka amara u too lol

I've been back to visit a few times, I just havent posted as much. But when i come back on, i have to do all the boring shit, moderating new users, checking ips, banning, modding, checking LTTP, the commission... then once thats done I'm free to read new threads and then post... so most of the time i look at the list of new users, think fuck it and log out. lol.

 

[ArtsyGirl]

I'm glad I'm not a moderator

 

[_carmi]

I've been back to visit a few times, I just havent posted as much. But when i come back on, i have to do all the boring shit, moderating new users, checking ips, banning, modding, checking LTTP, the commission... then once thats done I'm free to read new threads and then post... so most of the time i look at the list of new users, think fuck it and log out. lol.

ahhh its not rukas that does that?

 

[Amara]

ahhh its not rukas that does that?

No. It's myself, Pittsey, SicC and Rukas.

 

[_carmi]

No. It's myself, Pittsey, SicC and Rukas.

ah cause the way u were saying it it seemed like u were the only one doing it

 

[Katarina]

Doesnt sound good. Hope you're alright.

No, but I'm working on it. Thanks though.

 

[_carmi]

No, but I'm working on it. Thanks though.

what happened? (if u dont mind me asking)

 

[Katarina]

Well, since I don't know any of you I might as well tell you. I got pregnant and then I had an abortion without actually considering it and afterwards they offered me to speak to a psychologist and I declined without really considering that either. Since then I've pretty much been doing lots of drugs and praying that this won't be what will make me go insane.

 

[_carmi]

:sad: thats some hard stuff. you should reconsider the psychologist thing. it could help you a lot. you regret the abortion?

 

[ArtsyGirl]

Well, since I don't know any of you I might as well tell you. I got pregnant and then I had an abortion without actually considering it and afterwards they offered me to speak to a psychologist and I declined without really considering that either. Since then I've pretty much been doing lots of drugs and praying that this won't be what will make me go insane.

Dang I hope things work out for you, Keep Ya Head Up

 

[behind-my-eyez]

I probably would if it werent for the fact that he does reassure me all the time. I'm prone to feeling insecure, I guess maybe he realises that and puts in extra effort. Thats probably why I dont fear anything ever happening, I still just like to know, well if he flirts or if girls try and flirt with him... You know what guys can be like sometimes - they are so oblivious as to what constitutes flirting (most just think they are being friendly, lol). I wouldnt blame him for flirting, I'm ok with that to an extent (if its harmless), still I like to know what goes on.

:thumb: I have the same mentality, I trust my bf 200%, but there's always that thing in the back of my head when I think of the girls that wanna get with him. And just knowing that he talks to girls and has the girls crushing on him on his msn. It's the thing were I know what goes through girls mind, and I know girls can be manipulating and bitches, so that's why I get insecure sometimes. And I know I'm not perfect or anywhere near it, and seeing all those pretty, smart girls do intimidate me, it's crazy how much it does. I've only snooped a couple of times on my guys cell seeing who he's called and vise versa. But that's been it for snooping.
And Katarina, good luck with your stuff and I hope everything works itself out. But do keep your head up, when shit brings me down for some reason I think of "Annie" and the song she sings..."The sun will come out tomorrow..."

 

[_carmi]

:thumb: I have the same mentality, I trust my bf 200%, but there's always that thing in the back of my head when I think of the girls that wanna get with him. And just knowing that he talks to girls and has the girls crushing on him on his msn. It's the thing were I know what goes through girls mind, and I know girls can be manipulating and bitches, so that's why I get insecure sometimes. And I know I'm not perfect or anywhere near it, and seeing all those pretty, smart girls do intimidate me, it's crazy how much it does.

me too.

 

[Katarina]

:sad: thats some hard stuff. you should reconsider the psychologist thing. it could help you a lot. you regret the abortion?

Saying I regret it would be wrong, because I don't. I don't want to have a child at this point in my life but I'm not entirely happy with my decision either, especially not when I'm torturing myself reading about fetuses and babies.

The reason I didn't want to talk to a psychologist in the first place was because right after I found out I was pregnant my friend pretty much forced me to go talk to one. And while I was sitting there I realized that the psychologist had absolutely no idea what I was going through. She had never had an abortion, she had kept all of her children. Only way she knew how I "felt" was because she had read about it in a book.

 

[_carmi]

Saying I regret it would be wrong, because I don't. I don't want to have a child at this point in my life but I'm not entirely happy with my decision either, especially not when I'm torturing myself reading about fetuses and babies.

The reason I didn't want to talk to a psychologist in the first place was because right after I found out I was pregnant my friend pretty much forced me to go talk to one. And while I was sitting there I realized that the psychologist had absolutely no idea what I was going through. She had never had an abortion, she had kept all of her children. Only way she knew how I "felt" was because she had read about it in a book.

why are you torturing yourself with those fetus and baby books? try to get your mind on other things than this.

and yeah maybe the psychologist has not lived what you are living, but you should have still give her a try. it would have probably still helped you. cuz i believe you need help. it must be hard living what you are living. you need help no matter what you say.