Ok, so I have done speed a bunch of times, and I came to the conclusion that speed completely makes me the person that I strive to be. I don't to speed to be high or happy, but just to feel 'proper'. I am not an anti-social kid who sits in the corner and not interacts with anyone, when I am on speed. Few days ago, on an experience actually I realized I never felt so "normal" in a very long time.
However, I hate the comedown from that shit.. Sometimes I get way too fucking down, if I had a gun, I would just shoot myself without thinking..
So my question is, would it be a good idea to get prescribed to something like Adderall? Do you feel like shit coming down from adderall? I know if you are prescribed to adderall you take a pill almost every morning, but I dont want to feel fucked inside every night, coming down from it. So, can you let me know your thoughts, if you are on adderall or know someone that's on it?
Thank you, you will really kill my curiosity if you help