Some true to the heart shit.
Replied to Limn & Skitzo
http://www.soundclick.com/phoenixcrookedcross
Hidden Tears
I ain’t happy living here
So I smile now and cry later cuz I’m shedding hidden tears
When I’m alone I smoke weed to make my soul feel free
And to forget the truth that nobody knows me
It’s funny cuz they think they do but realistically
All they know is a phoney smile and an image of me
That’s nothing more than a way to hide\\ my pain and tears
And my deep need to die\\ since I came here
I’ve always known it was a mistake
& God must have been sleeping the day my birth took place
cuz it’s been hard, I’m a stranger to Lady Luck
But if it weren’t for my family I would have given up
....Way before now!
I ain’t happy living here
So I smile now and cry later cuz I’m shedding hidden tears
I don’t wanna be a Burden
So I just smile to hide the fact I’m hurting
I try to block out memories but they come to me when I sleep
& I relive the pain of seeing a friend Ode
With the belt still rapped around his arm
& the needle still sticking out a vain… Dear God!..
It tares at my heart at night, I’m scared 4 life
And it’s obvious by the bars that I write
Lord can you hear me? I need to feel you near me
Cuz I feel so alone sitting here getting weeded
I ain’t happy living here
So I smile now and cry later cuz I’m shedding hidden tears
Even the women that I love don’t Want me
You say you care but you put the worst pain On me
I really thought we were the same
Just two lost souls who had been left out in the rain
But together we found shelter
Cuz for the first time I felt peace when I was around ya
But the day you said ‘we just friends’ on the phone
Was the day you pushed me back into the rain and on my own
So I’m back all alone in the storm
Smoking weed to find the strength to carry on
I ain’t happy living here
So I smile now and cry later cuz I’m shedding hidden tears
With a past like mine it’s no surprise I’m a loser
Who hopes and dreams of a better future
It’s all I got…. So I focused on HipHop
& pray I can make it as the CrookedCross
So I stay writing and constantly rhyming on tracks
But let’s be real and look at the fucking facts
My life had been shit so why would my future be different?
Why would Lady Luck visit instead of keeping her distance?
Why would the rain stop and the clouds clear?.................
When I’m not even suppose to be here!
I’m so insecure and I’ma nervous wreck
& I’m thinking my only purpose is to stress
So I’m searching for a early death cuz I ain’t happy living here
So I smile now and cry later cuz I’m shedding hidden tears
I ain’t happy living here
So I smile now and cry later cuz I’m shedding hidden tears
Replied to Limn & Skitzo
http://www.soundclick.com/phoenixcrookedcross
Hidden Tears
I ain’t happy living here
So I smile now and cry later cuz I’m shedding hidden tears
When I’m alone I smoke weed to make my soul feel free
And to forget the truth that nobody knows me
It’s funny cuz they think they do but realistically
All they know is a phoney smile and an image of me
That’s nothing more than a way to hide\\ my pain and tears
And my deep need to die\\ since I came here
I’ve always known it was a mistake
& God must have been sleeping the day my birth took place
cuz it’s been hard, I’m a stranger to Lady Luck
But if it weren’t for my family I would have given up
....Way before now!
I ain’t happy living here
So I smile now and cry later cuz I’m shedding hidden tears
I don’t wanna be a Burden
So I just smile to hide the fact I’m hurting
I try to block out memories but they come to me when I sleep
& I relive the pain of seeing a friend Ode
With the belt still rapped around his arm
& the needle still sticking out a vain… Dear God!..
It tares at my heart at night, I’m scared 4 life
And it’s obvious by the bars that I write
Lord can you hear me? I need to feel you near me
Cuz I feel so alone sitting here getting weeded
I ain’t happy living here
So I smile now and cry later cuz I’m shedding hidden tears
Even the women that I love don’t Want me
You say you care but you put the worst pain On me
I really thought we were the same
Just two lost souls who had been left out in the rain
But together we found shelter
Cuz for the first time I felt peace when I was around ya
But the day you said ‘we just friends’ on the phone
Was the day you pushed me back into the rain and on my own
So I’m back all alone in the storm
Smoking weed to find the strength to carry on
I ain’t happy living here
So I smile now and cry later cuz I’m shedding hidden tears
With a past like mine it’s no surprise I’m a loser
Who hopes and dreams of a better future
It’s all I got…. So I focused on HipHop
& pray I can make it as the CrookedCross
So I stay writing and constantly rhyming on tracks
But let’s be real and look at the fucking facts
My life had been shit so why would my future be different?
Why would Lady Luck visit instead of keeping her distance?
Why would the rain stop and the clouds clear?.................
When I’m not even suppose to be here!
I’m so insecure and I’ma nervous wreck
& I’m thinking my only purpose is to stress
So I’m searching for a early death cuz I ain’t happy living here
So I smile now and cry later cuz I’m shedding hidden tears
I ain’t happy living here
So I smile now and cry later cuz I’m shedding hidden tears
