im getting worse.

[Frank Grimes]

hey, havnt been posting much lately but alot of you's know me.anyway theres just some shit i need to come out with and this forums seems like a good place cause i know people around here actualy give a fuck about people they dont even know over the net which is cool.. i know im not the greatest at wording what im trying to say i just need to get some shit of my chest. its just lately the last few months iv been getting worse kinda with deppression, im not fully depressed but last time i was like this was when i was umemployed and felt isolated from the real world, like everyones out having fun and im stuck in my room over analysing shit and kinda shuting myself out from the world.
anyway the last few months have been lonely more than ususal and a few friends have kinda ditched me at times, and although people dont know, im a super sensitive kid and i take shit bad like that.
girls dont want to much to do with me mainly cause im quite, best i get is the occasional 1 nighta but im yet to meet a girl i can really relate to and enjoy being with, feels like it will never happen.and im hardly the most confidnet person. anyway, shits hurting me inside, and about a month ago i just broke down and cried and i just jumped in my car and drove to find somewhere i could just be alone. after that iv been crying every few days to basically where i feel like crying everyday, i dont know whats wrong with me. ill be at work happy then its like reality hits and i feel like just walking out and being alone. i can hardly get drunk anymore cause it brings shit to the surface and i feel guilty from tryin to hide from my problems.
this isnt a suicide note. i could never do that to myslef. i just felt i had to share cause i cant speak to no one. i aint a whinger theres actualy a bit more to the story

.sorry to type alot and i know it didnt come out right but thanks for reading id appreciate any posts from anyone whos been through this mind state.

 

[Fataldawg]

Damn.. Honestly, you should get some help.. maybe you should be put on meds like prozac or something.. alot of people have depression, its nothing you should be ashamed of... If I were you i would go see a doctor.. I'm sure that stuff might help you :thumb:

Keep ya head ^

 

[Sebastian]

like Fataldawg said, we are no doctors, so you should go and see a doctor. thats definitely the best thing you can do if you are going through this situation for quite some time.

 

[The.Menace]

You lack of direction in your life, simple as that. Through all the depression and all that you have to ask yourself, what are you here for? I'm not sayin that the depression will go away once you made your mind up, but it will be easier to live if you know what you live for. There is nothing wrong with beein alone and I don't worry about drivin somewhere 2 be alone, I've always done that and I always will whenever I feel like doin so.
I'd suggest that you sit down and really think about what you care about, where you wanna go with life, what your attitude is. This is a search, you might not find an anwser in one night....through years of studyin myself and my past I got an idea why I am how I am and where it leads me, through years of readin I got an idea of how you can see the world but still I'm not sure about what my real purpose is - but it feels better then better jsut to have an idea.

P.S: Hit me with a Pm if u want to.

 

[KAMIKAZI]

I do understand what you're saying, I'm pretty much the same way as you, if I knew a solution things would be alot better for me too. :angry:

 

[yurdady1]

"if you can't find something to live for then find something to die 4" - 2pac....man i think i had 2 for a while but i don't think it was as bad...i mean i guess to get away from it i'd just fone up some homeboys and when they were busy and shit i'd just try and hit a book or game a while on my xbox or some shit like that, i guess just to take shit off my mind and not think about the world as much....but dang dogg according to ur profile ur 18 u shouldn't be thinking like that, u have lots of life left, plenty of women and lots of friends you can seek and look confort in...like fataldawg said keep ya head up, and at the same time just think that you still have lots of life left so go out and enjoy it and keep problems 2 a minimum worrying about them will only make them seem worse than they are....hope i helped any...

 

[Rahim]

dont worry man..there is always something to look forward to in the future. Just get what you need to get done so that's out of the way, even if it is annalyzing shit. Finish your education and get everything else in between that together. F*ck your friends because like my english teacher once told me, "your friends wont help you pay the bill". Hurry up and finish your education weather it is something small at a community college or even at a university degree level. (this is all advice my mom give me and lectures me about..i hope this helps cause it helps me too)....

Don't compare urself with other people especially with education. Who cares if the other person has a degree and you dont. Finish ur diplima and get a job so you can start earning some money. After you do that, start saving some in a bank account even if its just like 50 bux a month, any amount will be helpfull to you in the near future.

What my goal is right now even tho im just 19, is to save up for a downpayment on a condo or a house. Don't save ur money for a car, save ur money for a house or an apartment downpayment cause u cant live in ur car forever lol..

Even if you have half of the downpayment. You can go to the bank and get the other half by showing them proof u worked for the first quarter of the money. Im sure you will be approoved. Then start saving up for a car.........


YEah man...forget ur friends..everything will be alrite...fake friends are worth nothing compared to money. So fuck your friends and worry about the money man. Cause Money is worth alot more then Fake friends.

Im sure along those lines goood things will happen. Out of all this, DONT FORGET TO KEEP UR FAITH IN GOD CAUSE NONE OF THIS WILL HAPPEN IF U DONT...CYA MAN TAKE CARE of urself


email me or add me. I can relate to this. We can help each other out.

keep ur friends close and ur enemies closer dont forget that. but you have to figure out who's who..

 

[Cheesyphily16]

Don't trip over lack of "direction." You're only 18, your life is still ahead of you.