help!

shattered dreams said:
^ i found out i didnt need one, i posted up in holy shit im about to give birth, im going to talk to amara soon about closing some of my threads, too many of them up about the same thing.

lol. I can merge them if you like?

_carmi said:
or someone hit amara on msn.

Does everyone have my msn? amara84@gmail.com

Sometimes I sit there in invisible mode though... I dont know why, perhaps I am shy.

artisticgurl said:
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Violence is NOT the answer..

:laugh:
 
Amara said:
Sometimes I sit there in invisible mode though... I dont know why, perhaps I am shy.

you're shy? you dont look like it. and you dont have to be. you're brilliant
 
_carmi said:
you're shy? you dont look like it. and you dont have to be. you're brilliant

Jokerman explained it once in a thread in our block... basically I am a social retard. lol. Nah, it's an anxiety thing.
 
Well today he talked to his father, and his father basically said no hes not coming out here for the birth, unless someone comes. And no one can come. So his father is basically trying to keep him away from seeing his first daughter born.

Lance is telling me to buy him a ticket anyways and hes coming without their permission. I love him so much. I feel so bad for him right now i dont know what i can do to make him realize how much i love him. And how sorry i am that he has to go through this.

I can only imagine what it feels like to be 3000 miles away from his loved one and his soon to be daughter.

Im in such an emotional mood right now, im trying not to cry, i feel like its all about to come out for the fact all that he is doing to be with me and his daughter. And i know that what he is about to do is going to cause a lot of shit between him and his family. possibly never make shit right again. And he is risking it to be there for me and aricela.

god i love him, im so lucky to have a guy willing to sacrifice it all. And im so scared of what his dad is going to do. But i dont know what to do anymore.
All i know is that when he comes down here, on monday. That im going to treat him to the very best of my ability. and let him know im always there for him.

I just wish so bad that i could be there holding his hand, making his hand unclench from a fist and just hold his head to my chest as he tries not to cry out of anger. Like i did when i was there. When his dad would start talking shit.
Man....

Okay im going to stop else i could be going on forever.

so yup that is whats going to happen his plane should arrive at 2:25 pm my time on monday.
 
^ yeah i like to think so. lol.

Well today i booked his flight, monday morning hes telling his dad hes going to school. And then going straight to the airport. His flight leaves at 11:45 his time. and its a straight through flight to here. Im just going to be glad when his plan actually arrives here.

Im scared shitless of this whole thing, his dad is really scary. And i dont want something happening to where it doesnt happen, or his dad finds out, or something like that. And his dad raising hell at him.

I know he is going to get hell either way over, the phone, in real life when he gets back. Whatever i just feel so bad for him, i mean he is only bringing like a couple pairs of boxers and a shirt and the clothes on his back. Because he has to just leave with his backpack.

He is risking and doing so much, i feel bad that im so scared. when he is the one going through with this whole thing.

please everyone pray that it goes through right. i need this very badly.
 
Well just an update. Im talked lance into trying one more time, to let his dad say he can go by himself. That way it wont have to be a big deal when he leaves, and that way lance can say i tried all that i could.

But this time i told lance he should write a letter really explaining his feelings. And give it to his dad, that way his dad cant interrupt him and not let him talk.
so im hoping this makes his dad see the light. that way he wont have to leave without his dads permission.

But whatever happens with the letter later. Hes coming either way.
 
WELL TODAY IS THE DAY!!!!!!!!!!! I COULD BE SEEING HIM AGAIN!!!!!! IN 14:30 HOURS!!! YAY!!!!!! I JUST HOPE EVERYTHING GOES RIGHT!!!!!!!

omg its been four and a half months since i last saw him!!! holy crap, im so excited! if i could jump and run id be running around the block and jumping up and down!!!! omg, ill find out in about 10 hours or not, if he got on the plane!!!


Okay well i got to go, i have to clean, and pray that it all goes over well!!!

omg omg omg omg omg
-runs around screaming like a little girl

okay ill stop hahaha wish us luck!
 
Well i just got off the phone with him. Hes leaving his house in a half hour at the latest. And if he doesnt call me, to call when the flight was supossed to leave and see if he was on board. But if he doesnt call that means everything went okay.

Omg my nerves just hit like a sack of bricks, im so scared right now.
 

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