Cancer...Watching Those Close to You Drift Away

[Synful*Luv]

Good Morning Guys,

It's 8:53 am here in Chicago, IL and I was woke up with bad news. I've been staying at my gram's place as alot of you know, partially because I can't find a roommate, partially to spend more time with my Gram, she's currently suffering from Cancer and going through Chemo and I want to spend more time with her.

Anyway, she's been doing the Chemo for awhile with no problems at all. She actually only had four more sessions to go. Well, the doctor she goes to ran out of the liquid Chemo that goes through the blood stream and there was a shortage of the supply here in the States (kind of like what always happens with the Flu Shot) So they had been giving her Chemo pills instead.

She's been in alot of pain lately, and it hurts me soo much to see her like this. I mean, my Gram wasn't like the old lady who knits type. She was at the gym more than me working out, she played video games and basketball, she even used to challenge me and my little cousin to dance competitions. She was the healthiest person I know and so full of life.

So it sucks to see her like this now. And this morning, all of her hair came out. She had long hair, that I had just twisted for her last night, and all the twists were on her pillow this morning, her hair just came out from the root.

She's still upbeat and happy, but I can't deal with it. I can't stop crying, i've been crying all morning, and I don't want to cry in front of her. I'm always the strong one, who holds it together when things go wrong, but how can I be strong for her, when I can't be strong for myself?

 

[Tru Principle]

Life is life. You must accept reality as harsh as it is, but this is life. She has lived her life, and the only thing you can do right now is spend the remaining time she has with her, in good spirit. You can not give up hope though, however what you really shouldn't know is shed a tear and become depressed. She shouldn't be the one being strong for you, you're the one who should be strong for her. Even if you live to be a 100, one day you have to die and move on from this life. It's unfortunate that she has to go through this pain, but this pain is hers, and rightfully earned. So bring her happiness, and bring her hope when none can be found.

 

[linx]

Sorry to hear that.

 

[C.R.Y.]

sorry to hear about this. hope she gets better. the same thing happened with my mom when she had to tell my great grandmother about that she might die. she broke down crying.

 

[critikaldesignz]

I hope she gets well soon. You're lucky to still have a grandmother. My last grandmother died from cancer just last year but I didn't get any replies to my thread.

 

[The.Menace]

well check your pms syn.

 

[Flipmo]

Good Morning Guys,

It's 8:53 am here in Chicago, IL and I was woke up with bad news. I've been staying at my gram's place as alot of you know, partially because I can't find a roommate, partially to spend more time with my Gram, she's currently suffering from Cancer and going through Chemo and I want to spend more time with her.

Anyway, she's been doing the Chemo for awhile with no problems at all. She actually only had four more sessions to go. Well, the doctor she goes to ran out of the liquid Chemo that goes through the blood stream and there was a shortage of the supply here in the States (kind of like what always happens with the Flu Shot) So they had been giving her Chemo pills instead.

She's been in alot of pain lately, and it hurts me soo much to see her like this. I mean, my Gram wasn't like the old lady who knits type. She was at the gym more than me working out, she played video games and basketball, she even used to challenge me and my little cousin to dance competitions. She was the healthiest person I know and so full of life.

So it sucks to see her like this now. And this morning, all of her hair came out. She had long hair, that I had just twisted for her last night, and all the twists were on her pillow this morning, her hair just came out from the root.

She's still upbeat and happy, but I can't deal with it. I can't stop crying, i've been crying all morning, and I don't want to cry in front of her. I'm always the strong one, who holds it together when things go wrong, but how can I be strong for her, when I can't be strong for myself?

Hey Syn. I understand what you're going through, remember my gramps had cancer too. You said she's still upbeat and happy, so try and be happy with her. Positivity is the best thing you can do in times like this. Anyways, you know where to find me if you want to talk.

Stay strong.:thumb:

 

[keco52]

I'm sorry syn

You know my brother went through the same thing. It's ok to cry.
anyway...you know where I am...I'm always here if you want to talk.

 

[Helena]

So bring her happiness, and bring her hope when none can be found.

Syn i'm so sorry to read this, i agree with Flip Mo. She's still upbeat and happy, you don't want to spoil that by being sad do you? i know it's hard girl but stay strong. Do it for her.
I'm here if u want to talk ok

 

[Sebastian]

She's still upbeat and happy, but I can't deal with it. I can't stop crying, i've been crying all morning, and I don't want to cry in front of her. I'm always the strong one, who holds it together when things go wrong, but how can I be strong for her, when I can't be strong for myself?

sometimes its easier to suffer from pain than to watch someone else suffering

 

[Chronic]

Very sorry to hear that

 

[Freedom Froggy]

Life is life. You must accept reality as harsh as it is, but this is life. She has lived her life, and the only thing you can do right now is spend the remaining time she has with her, in good spirit. You can not give up hope though, however what you really shouldn't know is shed a tear and become depressed. She shouldn't be the one being strong for you, you're the one who should be strong for her. Even if you live to be a 100, one day you have to die and move on from this life. It's unfortunate that she has to go through this pain, but this pain is hers, and rightfully earned. So bring her happiness, and bring her hope when none can be found.

i absolutely agree with you on that.. it sucks when things like this happens... my granny just died back in oct.... but I have a real problem with expression emotion... im not sure if thats a good thing or a bad thing

anyways.. ill get aat you later or you can hit me

 

[Synful*Luv]

Thanks for everything guys, i'm okay, I feel better now. It was just that even though she's been sick for awhile, you could never tell by looking at her that she was actually sick. She was always up doing stuff, and she still looked real healthy, and it just hurts me to see her like this, she looks sick now.

And I was just soo upset to wake up and see all her hair gone. Like it just happened overnight. She's okay though, but I know it has to hurt her because that lady LOVED her hair. She was always bragging about it, and playing in it, and talking about no one had long red hair like hers, and how we "new schoolers" were jealous of her, hahaha

I just hate watching her suffer and not being able to do ANYTHING about it, that's the worst.

I have stopped crying though, and as long as I don't think about it too much, I don't cry. (Yes, i'm crying now, but it'll stop once I post in another thread, lol)


But thanks alot guys, and I REALLY mean that, I know it sounds lame but whenever something is going on in my life it's comforting to know I can just log on here and get words of wisdom and people who understand, thanks guys.

 

[Shahin]

Sup, just wanted to say the same thing happenned to my grandmother, even though I wasn't very close to her it was horrible seeing her hair fall of and her getting weaker, it's hard but the only thing you can do is stay strong for the sake of your grandma and the rest of your family. Besides, having a few laughs with your grandma will be worth the effort, and will make it all seem a little bit easier.
Keep your head up girl :thumb:

 

[Missy "C"]

I'm so sorry to hear the Syn I have a great relationship with my grandma and I don't know what I'd do in your case, it must be difficult :S But life's like that, and I agree 100% with Tru Princuple on this. Stay strong, and enjoy every second with her as much as you can. And never give up hope. Good luck girl :thumb:

 

[_carmi]

sorry to ear this. all you can do is spend time with her and make her/or try to make her forget she has cancer. at least she's happy and not down thats a good thing. stay positive.

 

[7 Syns]

Im sorry to hear, you know my msn get at me anytime you wanna chat.

Love.

 

[SiGh]

ay syn..im sorry to hear all this...but itz alwayz ok to cry..it lets out the things u cant bear inside nemore. try n spend as much as time u can with her...like carmi said. so ull alwayz have memories of all the good things u did with her n etc. and u can alwayz holla at me..if yer wants to talk n stuff.

i'm praying dat she gitz well..and u stay strong n positive mami.