The Long Post: It Ain't Coming.

[Preach]

I am referring to the long thread application. It's not happening. Instead I'll list a few things I've learned and experienced in the past week.

- Someone at a party I was at was allowed to sit in my car to shoot meth up his veins with a dude that came walking. This guy is a notorious criminal and has beat several people to the point where they became handicapped for life. Do I look like I was gonna say no when he was on alcohol, rufies, hash and amphetamine at the same time? Yeah right. After 30 minutes I come back to find him trying to hard-wire my car.
- His brother is an ex-torpedo whose name is not known by anyone right now, he changed it, and he is apparently gonna kick his little brother's ass for his behavior. He had him break my window so I could file a complaint to the police. I was in a four hour interrogation sort of. It was more like a psychology therapy session really. I don't rat but I had no problem giving that dude up. I also told my life story, that I've smoked weed for several years and done rufies and tried meth three times. The way the woman treated me helped me keep strength in the following decision I have made:
- I am done with drugs and the people that come with them. I'll get a gram every once in a blue moon and smoke but I am officially out.
- I fucked like a beast last night. I fucked so hard that my balls got sore and I couldn't come. Apparently I'm pretty huge and I can go on for pretty long. Hey, I haven't had sex in a long time. It was pretty cool. In the back of my parents car.
- Currently, at work, I am the highest ranking seller, looking at the statistics. I have worked my ASS off there. People here who really know me and talk to me on a day to day basis know this. I have over 80 overtime hours I never even asked to get paid for. During this summer, me and an intern ran the whole shop. It's supposed to be ten people in total.
- Right now I'm sipping on a finer $90 a bottle Cognac, Martell Noblige. The taste is rather smooth.
- Today I call my boss in for a "meeting", meaning we took a walk while I had a cigarette, asking him for a long weekend some time this fall, sooner rather than later. I'm way over-worked and I could use it.
- My parents on a weekly basis have people tell them what a great job I do. Yes, customers. My parents know a lot of people.
- During the "meeting", my boss tells me I should resign, with that tone as if it's "what's best for everybody" although he didn't say it like that. WTF??? I told a couple of my co-workers who shook their heads. His reasoning: I overslept twice and haven't reached my budget so far this month and won't. Neither will anybody else, but his response when I asked him what kind of a basis it is for an evaluation when NOBODY is reaching their budget this month and I am ahead of the rest. He manages to tell me he doesn't think I have what it takes to do the job. I had to ASK for another two weeks to "prove myself" as if a few months of running the whole thing along with fellow sellers who are equally untrained, because he doesn't even know how to make a cash register, doesn't prove enough.
- How did he get his job again? Oh, that's right, he's the regional manager's cousin. He never applied for the job and NEVER ran a business. A BUNCH of very good candidates were each given a fifteen minute interview with bullshit questions, courtesy of aforementioned regional manager who told me to my face I'm a great guy and he really sees a LOT of potential in me.
- Everybody at work agrees he is not a leader candidate. Last week a couple of us didn't get the right salary and made a deal out of it. After four days I called the chain's main offices and talked to the people at the economy department and it was fixed in a day. He blamed it on banks being slow.
- My personal theory is that the regional manager is well aware of my mental condition due to too much work during a time where he, who was responsible for helping out our department when we needed it the most, hardly answered our calls. He's not even in this town. He came here for ONE day. He got drunk as fuck the night before, I know because I met him. He's a fucking ass. That typical kind of selfish moronic idiot who thinks he is the shit because he has a high position. It's easier for me to resign than for them to give me something back for the hard work I know I've done.
- When the higher-ups were made aware of the circumstances at our department, my boss was called to the regional manager's office in another town and had to go there the following day to receiving the call, meeting the regional manager and the rest of the leadership. They basically had to explain the situation, and I guess they handled it because he still works here.
- A friend who I hold dear tells me the other day, he never feels anything. ANYTHING. He lived in foster homes and went back and forth. Three foster parents beat him until he got a pair that were okay. He doesn't wanna bother me anymore so he told me straight up, you can just stop hanging out with me, I don't wanna be a bother anymore, I just wanna get from A to B without making any head trouble. He's near suicidal I think. Jesus. I love the guy.
- I think I'm yet again falling for a girl who another friend who I also hold dearly had a 2-week thing with and is infatuated with, although he did more drugs than me and was more confused and desperate than realistic. What is it with me and other people's girlfriends and such?

Okay so it probably ended up being pretty long. By now I'm tipsy from the Cognac so I'm not gonna bother reading through it. If you read it you read it, if you don't you don't. The life is a cruel place. Work tomorrow. I'm gonna show that fucking bastard and if he tries to fuck with me I'm gonna a) humiliate him in front of all my co-workers, b) humiliate him in front of customers, c) file a report to the headquarters about things i've noticed, like how he's always leaving at 3:30 instead of 4. And this person tries to fuck with me because I overslept twice and have a tendency to always arrive JUST when the clock strikes whatever my shift starts at.

I just quit weed and am working on structuring my life. Last night I got ounces of self-confidence, today I was punched in the balls. Since I'm not on weed and have been for so long, I'm not really sure what I'm feeling. Maybe I'll just give in, resign, and move to study. I dunno. Fuck him though. If something happens I'll snap for real, even off the drugs.

 

[Tha_Wood]

congratz on kicking the habit.

fuck that manager, he sounds like a dick. i say you humiliate him in front of staff and customers.

 

[masta247]

The first part about that criminal sounds bad. I hate situations like this.

About your job: I was working in a mobile phone store too and quit it because of similar story but also couldn't stand what was going on around. And boss was a total dick too, literally.
I did a good job but I was honest with clients, that's why that dick was mad at me, I offered plans they really needed, not the most expansive ones and I cared about people who already signed agreements, I was told not to.

 

[Preach]

Exactly. That's just what I do. But at the same time, in a VERY respectful and unforceful manner i still manage to do more sales. Like. Today a dude was buying a phone. I asked him if he got a charger for his car. He pondered for a second and said no. I said "well do you think you'll need one? i mean, i have one myself (out of the ""s, i do have one myself) and it's quite nice when you're on the move if you need to recharge your phone". He was hesitant, not because I wasn't right because I was and he agreed, I guess it was a question about money, but I just went and grabbed a car charger and said "here, it's 199NOK (about $30 which isnt much by norway standards)" and he got with it. he shook my hand when he left and said "thanks" and i told him have a nice weekend. the whole thing was like. i did force it onto him but money comes and goes and in six months, is he gonna be any happier or sadder because he spent 30 bucks on a charger? of course not.

then again, if someone asks for the cheapest phone i don't really bother to try and sell them a bunch of extra shit because if i was in that situation i could say yes so as to not come off as cheap or poor or whatever, a pride thing, and i have to assume other people are like that too. so i always treat my customers respectfully.

i mean shit. i do a great fucking job and most of my customers seem to agree. i just need more structure which i can now work on being off the weed.

i've calmed down by now but i still wont let this shit fly. any action my boss takes will have an equal and opposite reaction from my side.

 

[Preach]

Btw it's pretty funny when I really think about it.

Norwegian telemarket operators don't do it the way some larger international operators do. Like, as far as I understand, in the U.S. you can get a Sony Ericsson K810 but it's called "T-Mobile Something" or whatever. I remember being on a site. The phone softwares are so locked. It ain't that bad here in Norway but it's funny that tele-operator leaders are such cynical bastards. I guess you have to be an asshole to get ahead *nods to S O F I*

Fuck that though.

 

[PuffnScruff]

um...thanks for the shout out?

 

[S O F I]

I did a name search and got "nods to sofi". But, I was too lazy to read the initial post. Sorry.

 

[Preach]

I did a name search and got "nods to sofi". But, I was too lazy to read the initial post. Sorry.

you're funny.

but yeah, basically i was partially being sarcastic partially saying you're right. listen, the emo shit lol. i don't consider myself an emo and don't have emo thoughts and don't let that shit phase me, when i say i'm emo it's a lil bit of a joke really. what i mean to say is i've felt sorry for myself for too long and i have no reason to. just like emos. so in that manner, yes, i've been "emo".

i nodded to what you said about being realistic, like you need to teach me how to live life lol. at the same time, i also agree with the things you say. like i just told jeremy, online, i'm me but there's a lot of uh.. i just read a book and there was a user comment on the book on amazon where a dude said the book makes clear to the reader the "semantic spooks of the human psyche" and i let a lot of those out here because i don't really feel a need to in real life.

call it an experimental way of thinking. as if i'm putting every thought i have to the edge of a knife blade to test it. i can do that here and not give a fuck.

 

[Preach]

um...thanks for the shout out?

i haven't really talked to you in ages since i had a blow-out during the "trazlympics" lol. i said i wouldn't say it but i'm human; i wasn't in a good spot back then. i over-reacted and i feel sort of idiotic. at the same time you didn't really understand my point in my posts and i still feel i had a point, but the end conclusion is that i guess it's better for the board's future that traz died out.

i'll hit you up some time, that should be better than a shout.

 

[PuffnScruff]

i think you said "hi" to me on aim a few weeks ago

 

[S O F I]

you're funny.

but yeah, basically i was partially being sarcastic partially saying you're right. listen, the emo shit lol. i don't consider myself an emo and don't have emo thoughts and don't let that shit phase me, when i say i'm emo it's a lil bit of a joke really. what i mean to say is i've felt sorry for myself for too long and i have no reason to. just like emos. so in that manner, yes, i've been "emo".

i nodded to what you said about being realistic, like you need to teach me how to live life lol. at the same time, i also agree with the things you say. like i just told jeremy, online, i'm me but there's a lot of uh.. i just read a book and there was a user comment on the book on amazon where a dude said the book makes clear to the reader the "semantic spooks of the human psyche" and i let a lot of those out here because i don't really feel a need to in real life.

call it an experimental way of thinking. as if i'm putting every thought i have to the edge of a knife blade to test it. i can do that here and not give a fuck.

I don't know what you're talking about. Are you responding to another thread in this thread?

 

[Casey]

Preach, I'm happy you quit the bud. Even just drastically cutting down, you'll find yourself less paranoid and less lethargic. Well, at least I did.

Hope you're happy with your life progression, it seems like you are for the most part. :thumb:

 

[Preach]

I don't know what you're talking about. Are you responding to another thread in this thread?

yeah i was drunk last night. i read your reply in to a longer post i did in another thread but i don't remember which lol.

 

[killahill187um]

interesting read

 

[Prize Gotti]

Rizzle, you're not a real winner in life until you can smoke weed on regular basis and progress in life. Its not hard, I've been stoned at work from the previous night with like 3 hours sleep several times. I got promoted by my 3rd week. I hit my monthly target in my first week, I've won 2 awards and several gifts. Not bad for a months work. Though I do hate having to stand infront of 300 staff members and have my photo taken with the managers.

 

[Preach]

Rizzle, you're not a real winner in life until you can smoke weed on regular basis and progress in life.

Lol. A week ago this would have gone in my signature.

For real though. I don't know what type of people you're with but when I'm smoking I'm not around reliable, loyal people. My real friends don't get high and all the ones who do normally lose control over time and start doing harder shit.

I've always retained the right to call myself straight, because even though I got high I still worked, but it's obvious that since i've tried meth a few times and done a rather vast amount of rufies over a rather short period of time, anything is prone to happen when I'm a part of that shit.

It's not like I'm not thinking "god I wanna smoke" because that's how I feel, I just don't let myself think it. I can have a great life without weed, and imagine how great a high would be if life was already great to begin with. The only "greatness" I ever felt I had in life was getting high. It was my number one priority except surviving and it consumed me. Now I'm looking for something else. Something that does not intoxicate me with poison, blur my thoughts, fuck up my recollection of chronology and most of all, something that costs a very high amount of money.

If it works for you, that's really great, for real. But it doesn't seem to really work for me, so what then? I man up and act accordingly.

 

[Prize Gotti]

This is Britain, most people I know either smoke weed or have smoked weed. But good on you man, I don't recommend drugs to any one, there is no denying they are one of the most regretable things you do in your life. I've done harder drugs, I learnt how over rate they were, I guess weed to is my alternative to alcohol, all though i do drink one occasions, but I'd rather get high and play computer games with my friends than become an alcoholic.

 

[Farzin]

Dude! that was one hell of a story i didnt read.

From what i am getting tho you quit smoking something.

Good for you!

Glue's bad for you.

 

[Cooper]

A day in the life of Riz. Nice read

 

[_carmi]

fuck that manager. you should call the head officie or something and file a complaint.

and good on quitting the weed. but hey don't start getting drunk every night instead of getting high.

and yeah i did read it all.