How do I name this? "I'm back"

masta247

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I just got back from my holidays. 3 weeks in a beautiful spot in our mountains. There's not many common people there - mostly locals (nice good looking girls and mostly simple guys), no big companies, life flows in a totally different way, you feel separated from all the bullshit out there, actually I was disconnected from the world not knowing what is going on, whenever you think or dream it gets pretty epic, you feel so free and you admire everything around you everytime you wake up or go for a walk at night and realise that the brightest objects out there are the stars.

This made me think a lot. The point of this thread though is to tell you that I could see everything from a different direction there and I want to share my thoughts.

You see, for the past few years I spent most of my time achieving goals I thought are really important to me. I was so focused to be a successful person, spent 90% of my time either doing something in a specific direction or thinking about it. I sacrificed a lot of my social life and spare time to perfect my skills and gain knowledge, do courses that would strenghten my position in the labour market and also pick faculties that often stressed me hard.
I was glad that I'm heading in a right direction to a successful life and everytime I did better than fe. friends from my group I felt sort of glad and rewarded.

Soon after I passed all of my exams at uni I decided to go just by myself to those said mountains to rest.
During those 3 weeks there I've met so many great people, spent one of the best times of my life and when I was alone hiking I contemplated my life - for the first time I managed to look at it from a different direction that made me happy - it was like discovering my true way to live.

For a long time I thought that people who said that money don't bring happiness, that the commercial measures of success are bullshit are corny, lame and that it's the same kind of people that say "You can be whatever you want to be" type of things - well, in most cases they were and that's why I didn't believe them.
Suddenly when I realised that most people get stuck working not just to affoard their normal lives but exploat themselves 100% to get more and more are pathetic. It's a total waste of life and I almost got caught in.
It's one of the biggest mistakes to do in life - to dump the chance of doing what makes you really happy and do what you think would give you profits that in reality won't change anything significant for you.

When I came back home I felt like I was sinking in a bowl full of everyday shit. I've felt terrible and lost all the enthusiasm I had before.
Today when I woke up I didn't even want to get up.
I decided to unpack my stuff and I came across a sheet of paper with dedications from 2 really nice girls I've met on my mountain holidays. It was almost illlegible since they wrote it soon before we got hit by an enormous rainstorm while we were about 10km from the closest settlements and returned on foot for about 3 hours in a heavy shower.
I suddenly reminisced the times I spent thinking there and managed to get my mind to the same state it was back then.
Right now I think that it's time to totally change my life and perceive things differently. I see that most of my earlier hopes and dreams were insignificant.
I also see that happiness is impossible to reach for most people who are stuck searching for it where there's no sign of it. I don't want to waste my precious life for stupid things which were my priorities back then. I even got caught into judging other people accoarding to what I thought was a fair measure of success/wealth which was super-stupid BUT I see that a huge majority of people still do so anyway. I also believe that this puts pressure on many people who then make wrong decisions, are forced to live by insignificant priorities and fail to understand what their lives should be really about. As I think about it now I think that most people adapted themselves to head in a wrong way without even realizing what is wrong, even if they know that they are not living their lives like they would like to.

Personally I was stuck thinking about my life a lot of times with no success, then my life had to give me a demo of what really makes me happy - I was lucky enough to find it out.
So don't think about your lives too hard, don't adapt to things you just feel quite comfortable with but go and search for your own joy.
I see that what I just wrote looks sort of corny and so 70s or 80s but hey, it worked for me.
 

Shadows

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Getting disconnected with the world is less stressful. I've noticed that people without cell phones are a lot happier than those without, even though I still have one.

I'm glad that you had time to think and replenish your soul with good thoughts. I have been needing/wanting something similar.


"So don't think about your lives too hard, don't adapt to things you just feel quite comfortable with but go and search for your own joy." The PURSUIT of happiness. :p

:D

I think talking to my new co-workers just puts me down lately. They just talk shit. I need to get out but can't with my schedule.

I tend to watch movies to take my mind out of the bullshit and just reflect on the characters, kind of like how 'Pac used to disect his characters and stuff.
 

S O F I

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#3
Jokerman will be proud. :)


As I was reading through your post I kept expecting you to say what that happiness is for you. In other words, what kind of different life will you lead after this trip that you didn't lead before?
 

Flipmo

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I went away last weekend to the country side. There was no TV, and I didn't have a radio else from my car radio which I didn't open once. The first day I was there I kept telling myself:
'Wonder whats going on in the world'. Eventually, I started getting confortable, and really enjoyed myself like I had no worries.

Once I got back, I've been stressed and on edge ever since. I feel a lot more irritated quicker than when I was away. I guess the B&B owner was right when he said: "When you think about it, it sure seems like the human race was not meant for life in the fast lane"
 

masta247

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I thought that it'd be more interesting if I left that to myself ;)

Well - technically I want to spend more time doing things I really enjoy, stop wasting time, travel more, find a job that is rather less absorbing and stressful and more suitable for me even if it pays a bit less. I'm thinking about changing my major.
I will also try to move to a place I'd feel really comfortable at.
Except that mostly inner self stuff. Personal growth in a different direction and thinking differently.

By the way Sofi - I spent 2 days in Prague and for a second I thought that I saw you leaving McDonalds but when I took a closer look I thought that it's not you and that I must look creepy staring at some random guys.
 

Jeremy

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I think this happens to everyone after vacation. I just got back from mine a week ago and it's been shit ever since. The drive back was so depressing. Just sucks that life is work and you can't travel when you want to unless you win the lottery or have a trust fund.
 

S O F I

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By the way Sofi - I spent 2 days in Prague and for a second I thought that I saw you leaving McDonalds but when I took a closer look I thought that it's not you and that I must look creepy staring at some random guys.
lol there's like 32 McDonald's in Prague but it's still possible as I've been to a few a couple of times early on in my trip. When was this?
 

Flipmo

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By the way Sofi - I spent 2 days in Prague and for a second I thought that I saw you leaving McDonalds but when I took a closer look I thought that it's not you and that I must look creepy staring at some random guys.
It was not Sofi, it was just a man wearing a garbage bag for a dress.
 

masta247

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I think this happens to everyone after vacation. I just got back from mine a week ago and it's been shit ever since. The drive back was so depressing. Just sucks that life is work and you can't travel when you want to unless you win the lottery or have a trust fund.
Yeah I usually had it like that but now it was way more serious.

lol there's like 32 McDonald's in Prague but it's still possible as I've been to a few a couple of times early on in my trip. When was this?
About 3 and a half weeks ago. McDonald in the center of Prague, near some museum of I can't remember what.
 

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